Chapter on Trust

My chapter on trust in my book of life is very short. Life experiences at a very young age shattered that emotion and it has been a slow rebuild. Not saying that I don't trust at all because I do trust others with material things and some times I trust a few with secrets or feelings but my issue is trusting someone enough to ever let them know who I really am. People believe that really know me but if questioned about me they would realize that they really only know surface general information about me and very little about who I really am and what I really think about things. I am a good listener and a great information gatherer about others without sharing much about how I really feel. I strive on people reading and enjoy figuring them out without every giving enough information about myself to be figured out. I hide behind this wall of brick I have created and will only peek over the top on occasion to show a piece or two of who I am. After years of being with my husband I noticed that I had removed many bricks from this wall and had began to believe that the wall was crumbling until this year. He had been telling lies to me and was forced to come clean not of his own free will but because of circumstances. If he would have just told me what he was doing I wouldn't have liked it and there would have been hell to pay but not as much as he will pay now that he has lost that part of me that years took to get. It was amazing to me how quickly I could rebuild that wall and become cold. This is not something that I want to do but it is a natural reaction I have. I believe it is one that forced into my personality by childhood experiences. I think we are all born with trust and actions from others take it away. What actions took mine away you ask? Well that would definitely be another chapter in my book of life and not one I choice to share just yet. Kind of funny how I can write this for the world to see as long as I know that you don't know who I am. Maybe in the Chapters to come I will open up some of who I hide from the world. Am I short changing myself by hiding behind this wall or is better to be safe?