Death warmed over...........

Death warmed over pretty much sums me up. Yep, I been one sick puppy since last Friday night. I started feeling a bit congested late Friday afternoon but had given my word that I would attend a fundraiser event in the evening so pushed forward. By Saturday morning my sickness was now pushing back and I was losing ground quickly. Instead of fighting to continue on with my Saturday schedule I took some cold medicine and crawled back in bed. Didn't plan on staying in bed till Tuesday but this head cold had me defeated. I end up at the doctor yesterday and he took one look at me and sat down and wrote me out two prescriptions. These are the best drugs ever! I am already starting to feel some better and I now have enough energy to figure out how I am going to salvage Thanksgiving. For those of you who don't know, my husband and I have Thanksgiving at our home and have anywhere from eleven to twenty people depending on the year. Since it was looking disappointing on Monday that I would be feeling up to it having it a change in locations was made. Seems so different not having it here after so many years. Being sick this week has been rough on me physically but even more tough on me emotionally. Being sick has slowed me down which has given me way to much time to think and as we all know thinking is not always a good thing for me. I have been thinking about my dad a lot this week and how much I miss him. He was my superman. He didn't raise me as a child and in fact I was 18 when my mom and him got married but he still was such a huge impact on my life. Besides my dad I have thinking about my grandma so much this week. I lived with my grandma most of my childhood and she taught how to live the life that God has given us and enjoy it. She made the holidays so special. Losing both of those important anchors in my life in one year (five years ago) was almost to much to handle. I often don't think I would have made it through if it hadn't been for my sister's children counting on us for holidays. Knowing how important the holidays were to my grandma meant I had to ensure that my sister's children learned how special they are too. Why did I somehow take on and own that responsibility? I would like to blame the drugs for me wandering off in another direction of conversation while writing this but we all know that would be a lie. Anyway.............. So tomorrow my husband and I will be carting a 24pound turkey, a pumpkin pie, a cherry cheese cake (if I get in there and get it made), and our holiday cheer out to the cold Jeep to go. Since I won't have the insane morning rush of working on getting everything around the house done I think I will spend some extra time jotting down all that I have to be so thankful for.
I wish for you a very Happy Thanksgiving.........

Now you know my ABC's

Caught this one over at a spot I visit on occasion and thought I would play ABC's.

A is for age: Not yet 40, and that makes me smile :).

B is for burger of choice: Mushroom Swiss burger. Mmmmm a hamburger with Swiss cheese, sauteed onions and heaps of mushrooms.

C is for the car I drive: Well I don't drive a car, I have a Jeep. Even though it drinks gas way to fast I love how safe I feel in it. My commute in the winter to work would be terrible without my Jeep. I also love it because it's paid for!

D is for your dog’s name: His name is Romeo but I have been known to call him my little man and my little bad boy. Funny I call hubby similar names but I leave the little word off.

E is for essential item you use every day: Cell phone. While commuting home each evening I use the cell to take care of all family and friend calls so when I get home I am phone free for the evening.

F is for favorite TV show at the moment: I can't pick between "House" and "Criminal Minds" for a favorite. In fact those are the only two shows I attempt not to miss each week. I enjoy the sassy doctor on House and I want to work with the FBI division that criminal minds is part of. I am so into behavioral patterns that I believe I would enjoy it.


G is for favorite game: I would have to say Scrabble is my favorite but I do like some editions of Trivia Pursuit.

H is for home state: Well I born in Mississippi, then I lived in Kentucky for a short time, and now I have been in Wisconsin for over 25 years.

I is for instruments you play: Does attempting to play the Oboe in 4th grade count? If that one doesn't count then I play a mean air guitar when listening to Santana and a wild air piano when hubby has Billy Joel CD on in the car.

J is for favorite juice: ummm pineapple juice with coconut and rum in it. Oh wait that is a Pina Colada. I am addicted to Pomegranate juice.

K is for whose bum you’d like to kick: If I was going to kick anyone it would be probably be one of the negative gossip girls I work with.


L is for last restaurant at which you ate: Olive Garden back in September for my birthday.

M is for your favorite Muppet: even though I have been known to act like Oscar the Grouch my personal favorite Muppet is Cookie Monster. He is all about the cookies!

N is for number of piercings: Just my ears, but twice on each so that is four pierces.

O is for overnight hospital stays: I have never stayed overnight in a hospital.

P is for people you were with today: My mom, the farmers at the farmers market, people at the grocery store I took my mom too, and my hubby.

Q is for what you do with your quiet time: Read books, scrapbook, and posting on blog.

R is for biggest regret: I try to not regret. There are things I wish I could change but I try not to regret those things because there is a lesson and or a blessing in them.

S is for status: which one you want? - the married one, or the hungry one, or I am fricking freezing without my slippers one.

T is for time you woke up today: 6:30.

U is for what you consider unique about yourself: I can't really think of anything unique about me expect maybe for my ability to blend in to any environment I am in. Kinda like a chameleon.

V is for vegetable you love: I love every vegetable except for beets. In fact I can easily go with just veggies for my meals without missing meat at all. Hubby on the other hand would not be happy with just veggies.

W is for worst habit: Anxiety. I even worry and have anxiety about things that have evened happened yet.

X is for x-rays you’ve had: I think I might have had one on my knee.

Y is for yummy food you ate today: That is a problem because I haven't eaten yet today. I have had massive amounts of coffee. :) Oh wait I did eat a mushroom or two while I was cutting them up to put in dinner.

Z is for zodiac: Virgo - and everyone knows we are the best to have on your side in life.

More strange facts about me that you didn't need to know but I shared any way! I double dog dare you to copy this over to your site, fill it in, and send me a invite to go read..........

Fragments of thoughts.........

Since the schedule has not left time for me to blog much lately I have been scribbling down thoughts that I wanted to share when time allowed. I can not even imagine the look of concern that someone would have if they came across all my scribbles.

(Note to self must put line in my will about all my scribble notebooks are to be burned and not read cause I am afraid they could cause someone brain damage if they tried to figure me out.)

• I had a few very strongly written scribbles regarding the voting, the election, and stupidity of people BUT I have decided to not really touch on that . I will say that even though I did not vote for him I will support him as the president of America.


• I also had some scribbles regarding this whole time change system. What is the gain in doing this? It seems to me to be some sadistic ritual to us that already have sleeping issues. Since I can't seem to adjust to the change I am now waking up each morning at 4:30am and I can guarantee you I ain't waking up smiling.


• I have some scribbles some where that I was going to share about how I can not stop the holidays from coming so I am going to have to come up with a plan of how to change my thought process about them. I am a total Martha Stewart type when it comes to holidays with the decorating, baking, and gifts. I can and will still do those things but I am going to really have to plan how to do it on a very tight budget.


• Oh my, I also have some not so nice scribbles regarding hubby and neglect. Yes, there are numerous four letter words in those scribbles. I took someones advise and spoke to hubby about lack of attention he gives me and he ignored the whole conversation. He refused to acknowledge that I was even talking to him about this. So when he does nice acts around the house like making dinner or cleaning up is this his way of showing he loves me since he refuses to tell me OR are these things he would be doing anyway and I am just believing they are signs of love? What is it going to take to get this man to realize that he has a good wife?


• I have some sad scribbles about not getting the new job I posted for at work. The hiring manage raved to me about my experience and background but decided to go with someone that has prior experience with this exact posting. I heard a rumor this past week about who may have been offered the position and I am furious because if that is the case then office politics won again and not experience.

So many scribbles and so little time to post them all lately. In fact right now I am suppose to be some else besides sitting here at the computer but I wanted to come post before one of my scribbles of paper blows away in the very brisk fall wind. Is all this scribbling on paper a sign that I am beginning to not trust the memory so much?

BUDGET-forgive me for I have spent....

Even as anal retentive as I am about the rigid budget we need to follow to pay down our debt I to falter once in a while. I must confess that not only did I buy a magazine from the grocery store check out line but I went to McDonald's this week. I know you are saying ?fast food? instead of the budget BUT I was weak to the smell of French fries. I am not much for fried foods but I believe those were the best darn fries I have eaten in a long time! One of the lessons I have learned with living on a rigid budget is that I historically spent a lot of money without enough thought. I always believed I lived rather conservative but I realize now that I really wasn't that conservative. I would watch the price of items but I still put many impulse items in the cart. Looking at the 27 bottles of nail polish I have might help draw attention to that fact. Considering I am not a freak of nature with forty fingers or toes that could be painted weekly I would say that I wasn't very conservative with my polish purchasing. I might have been conservative with the price but not of the quantity. Seriously, a year ago I would not have given a second thought to how many I had. Hard to believe things can change so quickly. I am not glad at the circumstances that created the need for this new awareness of how money is spent but I am grateful that I am more aware now and I now know that we can make it on just one income. I have also learned through this that there are a lot of things one can live without and still be fine. The one thing we had to give up lately is the microwave. Our microwave went out and it is not in the budget to go buy a new one right now. We decided that before we are going to dip into the emergency fund money for a new one we would see how well we can do without one. Shockingly enough we are doing alright. Apparently it is not a staple item for our existence since in the last two weeks we have only missed it twice. I am not saying it wouldn't be nice to have one for some things (like popcorn) but I'm saying it's not worth dipping into emergency funds for it. Oh, and one side note - I like popcorn but it is hardly worth making a dirty pan. ha ha Can you tell today I am working on seeing positives in this black hole of debt we are trying to dig out of? Just like the little train - I think I can I think I can!!!!
Man, I hope I still have a bottle of wine left that I got for my birthday cause I think it may be a staple for my existence this cold and rainy Saturday night................