Today is the day I am giving myself a kick in the ass to remind me to get a life. I just looked over what I have written this year so far and it is blah,blah,blah. For the love of God I have to loosen up and have some fun. Not sure if it is the bottle of wine I am finishing up as I write or that fact the sun finally showed up instead of snow or the new hot pink nail polish I put on my toes BUT whatever it is it showed up just in the nick of time. I have spent the better part of the day sulking in my shit trying to find a good reason I could justify it. Not even a bottle of wine could help justify that. So with that being said let the clean up begin. Should I start my cleaning with the house or myself? Well I do know that my anal self always feels better when I get some stuff done around the house so that is were I better start. When I started out this year I has these grandiose ideas of all these house projects to be done and never once gave much thought to how I was going to execute and complete them all. I attempted to trick the hubby into getting on board my over zealous planned boat but he wouldn't fall for it. Speaking of him why is it he has 20/20 vision but yet can not see the dust that needs to wiped away? Maybe does see it but yet it doesn't bother him. Hell as far he is concerned as long as the dust bunnies aren't laying on his couch or hiding his remote control the world is alright. DaMn! We are so opposite I can't believe we have stayed together this many years.(18)
Besides the kick in the azz I gave me while drinking my wine and waiting for my toe nail polish to dry I did jot down a few things. I so love list!! How do people without list ever get through a day? The first list was immediate cleaning things I will do and the second list was the good one. Here are some of the things that I put on this list:
- Stop being a dumb azz toughie and call the doctor in regards to maybe getting some of those happy pills that half the female population is on. No not ones for sex drive cause my drive is in permanent 4 wheel overdrive! I think it maybe in my best interest and everyone around if I get some mood altering assistance. No really I need to lighten up on the people around me. You know it is bad when I am saying "no I am not suicidal but I am feeling rather homicidal. Yikes pass me a little yellow pill quickly!
- Frickin' stop worrying about finances constantly! I need a daily reminder that I can only pay out what I bring in and as long as the mortgage is paid and the minimum payments on everything else that it will be alright. So what if it is going to take me two years of living poorly to accomplish this (assuming nothing else major happens during that time) I am a survivor so I will make it through. Must remember I still have choices!
- Must have fun! Sad I have to remind myself to have fun but that will change in time. I have so much around me that I can have fun with. Like - a small semi trailer full of scrap booking supplies, a wonderful lounge chair that I can sit in when it warms up and read one of the many books I have bought that I haven't read yet, getting together more with my one close friend that I share all my secrets with, walking the puppy by the lake when it is warmer, go take pictures with my camera I got for Christmas, (side note - I love photos)(second side note- I have a really hot male friend who use to take pictures for a career that I would love to learn from) So when I got to here on the list my mind started to wander off about my hot photo man who is a bad boy and rides a motorcycle and the list stopped. Mmmmm better stop talking about him since we know what happens to us girls when we drink a bit much. OK one more comment about him - he is one of the most sexually giving lover a girl could long for. Uh oh now I have said to much.
I must mention that there should be one more on this list and it will be - Make your post out on this blog fun/interesting and not something that people use to help them get sleepy. I do not want my blog used as a sleep aid! And with that being said I better get my tipsy azz up and moving since the wine is gone and my hot pink toe nails are dry....
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