Here I am..........

No need to label me MIA cause I am back. I know it looks like I abruptly just vanished but that was not my intent. In my last post I was under the influence of hurting emotions so I thought it best to get a grip and come back. Yeah, I am girlie with my desire for freshly painted toe nails, lovely lace thongs, and high heel sandals but I am not usually girlie with expressing my feelings. I am not much on the whole drama scene of emotions. Not that I don't feel or express emotions but I do better if I compartmentalize my feelings and deal with issues on my own terms. I keep a wall built up around me. I am reserved with showing how I feel but maybe that stems back from if I let you in and you know me to well then you will also know how to hurt me. Ah yes it always leads back to that nasty little word trust. Even though truly gaining my trust is difficult it has it's rewards. Once I trust you I give you all of me and all that I have. I will love you unconditionally without limits. If I give someone trust and they hurt me I immediately go and hide behind my wall I have built. That is not saying that I won't trust that person again but it will definitely take time to bring down that wall and they will lose a part of me. Damn, sure hope Dr. Phil don't read this or he will seeking my azz out for treatment. Ha-Ha This is going to be another one of those post that I read back later and think what the hell was I thinking actually writing this down. I promise the next post will not be any psycho-analysing BS.