Mental battles from within

Ten days into the new year and I find myself consumed in the battle of fighting my own personal demons. These demons of negative energy just barged right into my thoughts even though they know they are not welcome here. This sudden emotional back stepping is probably a good indication that I need to start addressing issues I have been skirting around quickly before the enemy depression sneaks in. The enemy depression and I have spent years together in a unhealthy relationship until I decided to break that bond some time ago. That doesn't mean he doesn't try to sneak in on occasion but not as often any more. It use to be a lot of work defeating depression from sneaking in but I have gained inner peace that guards for me now and only on occasion when my inner peace has wandered off does depression make it into my thoughts. With all of the distractions of the holiday bliss and the late hours working to make it all happen I neglected that part of me that goes to mental battle of my behalf and I am now paying the price for that neglect. With that being said I need to get back to my journey of working on understanding the chapters of my life that are creating my book. As I take this pilgrimage through my chapters of life so far I can only hope for insight to assist in the forming of future chapters. And if there is no insight then oh well I will continue to fake it till I make it....