Wait for me...........

I can't believe January is already more than half way over already and it didn't wait for me. I have gotten a few things done though like finished two really good books, learning how to use my new camera (sorta), painted the office/spare room, managed to keep my hours at work to 45 or less, organized spare closet, and worked out new very rough household budget. If you haven't guessed already I have decided that 2008 is the year to better structure my life. So I made this plan kinda of what I want to try and accomplish each month of this year. Some working on projects around the house (never ending projects), some working on internal projects in myself (yikes dealing with me), some I have set aside any of my extra time to give to others (yikes dealing with others). One of my goals for this year is to learn how to better balance myself. I sometimes give to much of myself leaving nothing left for me which can then lead me into a panic overwhelmed mood if faced with issues before I can nurture my strength back. Other times go to the opposite extreme and appear to just shut down to people around me which is not good because then people think I am being cold and distant. I want to find a balance where I can be there for people without giving so much of myself I have nothing left for me. I am a mentor for this one support group and I even find at times I try to absorb some of their pain so they can be at ease. This year will be a journey of finding my inner balance and for finding true happiness and peace in me. I want to continue to grow in my ability to be comfortable with myself and my surroundings without anyone else in them. I want to want people and not need people for the most part. Wow this posting got much deeper than I planned. Better stop now before I dig a hole I can't get out of without writing a novel.